Finally - I made up my mind

I had finally made up my mind to return for SIN.

I had woken up from my dream, a dream that I had been carrying on for 1.5 years and unwilling to wake up. Today, I realise how dumb and silly i was to let someone that I love hurt me so deeply.
I never regretted meeting him. I still love. BUT enough is enough. I am glad that I am stepping it out myself.

I am going to the path that I had chosen whether its good or bad I will bear my own consequences. I know happiness is in my own hand. Only I can save myself..

I am thankful to have my family & friends welcoming back home.. I am sure... I WILL PARTY day and NIGHT with them.

Sadness will go away...Happiness is coming to my DOOR!!

Now what i can do is treasure the last 2 months here and enjoy every moment of SYDNEY.
Saying goodbye is hard, i am a sentimental person but I know I can make it to HOME.
I will party every day...and then set myself to go back home..

Dear XXX,
I still love you.. and never regretted meeting you.
It is you that make me understand the magic of love.
It is you who teach me every skills that I had now.
It is you who hurt me as deeply.
I know you tried to love but failed.

I enjoyed every moment I had with you, from the GOOD & BAD times.
But I know..I need to wake up from this dream that isn't true.

I hope you can cherish your life and wake up to.
You had not been the person i meet years ago, the cheerful and cool dude before.
Anyway it's your life I had said before...
"No woman can change you, only you can change yourself"

The song i heard today...nearly make me cry, it is so TRUE...
For you...

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognise me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

(Happy Christmas!) I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I Love You" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

(CHORUS)

(Oooh. Oooh Baby)

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Oooh Oooh
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again
(CHORUS)

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
(Gave you my heart)
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Next year
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone special
special
someone
someone
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone special
who'll give me something in return
I'll give it to someone
hold my heart and watch it burn
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone special
I've got you here to stay
I can love you for a day
I thought you were someone special
gave you my heart
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone
last christmas I gave you my heart
you gave it away
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone